2/11/11

so fast
统考过去了
考得很差 怎么办
梦到只有两个A 还有C thim
很恐怖咯 有史以来最吓人的

昨天和今天都出席文学奖颁奖礼
but那个英文的只是安慰
幸好今天国文拿特优
不然很失望咯～～～
哈哈，那个panel hakim讲
kategori A cerpen 能拿特优的
在写作方面很有才华
娃哈哈 有点暗爽
RM150 要怎么用？
好像没什么人可以跟我一同分享
算啦 买多多笔大学用

毕业典礼 18/11
不过很wtf啦
唱什么“听你说”
zzzz 我要萍聚啊 ><
yerrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr

要毕业了
last few days in school
啊啊啊啊啊
很伤感啊

听着萍聚
很有感觉 =(

19/6/11

it's 3.xx am in the morning
but i just can't sleep yet
have to hand in a cerpen to syahnaz by monday
it's tomorrow..
but i'm lack of time =(

so many homework given
i don't even have time to finish it
haiz....
i need a rest desperately...

i get lots of pressure from people around me
just hope that i can still deal with it

too many things are holding me back
when only can i start to move on?
sigh...

15/6/11

i feel so bad
terribly bad =(
it's like all my fault

if it wasn't me
she wouldn't be suffering now
i just wanted to make things right
i hope she really understands

someone told me she cried so badly
this just breaks my heart
i couldn't stand imagining her hiding in the corner sobbing so hysterically
i just feel bad
but i couldn't do a thing to help

i wouldn't want to think about it now
but i can't
perhaps we just need more time

i really hope she will get better soon
and me too
she has great goals waiting for her to achieve
i wish her all the best
i really hope that she will be living better than me in the future
only then she will find real contentment and pure happiness

12/6/11

i wanted to scream so badly =(
why things became like this??
why is it like that?
it's like things were never easy for me...

i really wish 2012 will come soon
so that it will cover all the ugly truths
all secrets remain secrets

i'm suffering so badly now
but i couldn't do a thing...

after all i'm just a miserable, sad wimp
nothing more than that

10/6/11

away for three days
and so many things happened
most of them depressing
some of them confusing
i dont know what i am thinking now
i'm so confused
can i just stab myself with a penknife??

i think the gang is now official
we dont know what will happen
we can just hope that nothing as bad as that night will ever occur again

these few days i've been thinking
do i deserve all of this?
i don't have what you want
i'm just a wimp...
all you did for me
it's not worth it
because i couldn't give you anything in return...
i really wanted to break up..
i think this would make our life better
but since you wanted
i would give it a try
but i cannot guarantee

华文比较能表达我的感受
我的心还是很不定
我还是很心烦。。。
我不知道这样做对没有。。。
我不知道我会变成怎样。。。
唉。。

不知道啊
心烦。。
想死。。

6/6/11

it's fast
three days have passed
going to melaka tml
but not very excited actualli
if my frens are not going thn this trip is just pure meaningless
zzzzzzz

it is quite strange to say it this way
holidays always make you feel like going to school
staying at home is just so boring
life have never been emptier..
lol but u will desperately ask for holidays in school...
i guess friends are just too important for us =)

just when i thought things were being fine
i realized that we actualli have a lot of problems that need solving
we will get through it though
however i wonder if things will go smoothly as we wanted it to be or not
im starting to feel a bit unsecure actualli after the 'discussion'
we don't know how things will flow..
so just appreciate this moment
im sure we'll be okay ^^

and a small demand from a special person
here you are
i typed what you wanted me to:
i like u so much
dun leave me <3
lol

i think its real that you can only find true friendship through hardships
friends that are realli there for you
and i think i've found mine =)

i will stop here...
time to pack my bags
will be gone for three days =)

3/6/11

i know it's been a very very long time i vanished
and now i'm back
just felt the sudden urge to update it
and andy's clarion call
kept asking me to update
so perhaps this might be a form of peer pressure xD

typed in english because i wanted to
chinese is just time-consuming and unnecessary
ignore the mistakes please

one more week left for the school holidays
and i haven't even finished my karangan yet
i swore so badly that i wanted to start my revision during the holidays
i wanted to catch back up
but it seemed like i failed
i'm obsessed with my pc
just hope that i could get rid of it soon
pray for me
i realli wanted to start reading textbooks

speaking of books
recently i've been reading tragics
first the book thief
and just hours ago i finished a thousand splendid suns
both are great masterpieces
i highly recommend =)
going to start reading to kill a mockingbird
then water for elephants
i wonder if water for elephants is a tragic story too
the title sounds sad...

i think things are going ok between the two of us
let just hope that nothing will come between us =)

however not in a realli good mood recently
it's just that too many things happened these days
but there's something worth celebrating
i think i've found myself a few true close friends =)
cheer for me
hehe

it's late
off to sleep
bye and have a peaceful sleep =D

9/2/11

it's been a while

but it seems like no one came to my blog

obviously

lol

decided to use english in this post

much easier and convenient

however u might encounter grammar mistakes while you read

try to ignore those mistakes lahh =)

first of all

today's my brother's birthday ^^

but he may not have the chance to c this post

*he's a game-addict, no time for blogs

he finally turned 10!!!
still childish though

but still wish you a happy birthday

hope you will stay strong and be optimistic everyday =)

everyone in the family loves you <3

it's sooyoung's birthday tomorrow =)

haha

wish her all the best in her career ^^

the cny holidays ended

school started today...

however i came back on sunday

to join my friends and went for an angpao-hunt

but actually i'm not really happy...

it's just..

i don't know how to explain...

wasted RM300++ on my air ticket

but i think i didn't earn back a good trip

the second day was quite empty actually

if i have to say...

however the movie

i great movie

highly recommended =)

please watch it if you have time

cause it's quite long...

just listened to oh! male version

personally i think it's nice xD

but still it's a bit weird...

lately i'm not in a good mood..

not to say sad..

but certainly unhappy plus a bit of sadness

always felt that nobody ever bothered my existence

lol

i'm so quiet in class today... xD

i got a strange feeling when i see people posting things on fb

those strange things

like they wanted to be alone

wished that they could just vanish in the crowd...

i wonder if they really think that way??

or are there any messages behind those posts??

it just didn't feel right

everyone needs friends right??

lol

however my current relationship with my friends

it's not really good as it was before

but it's not really a big deal to me now

when the time comes and requires me to let go

i will

there are still people i will meet in the future

having a test tomorrow

i'll stop now

have to go for a quick revision

then off to bed

nitez and sweet dreams everyone =)

28/1/11

wow

好久没上来了

upload着生物报告

所以顺便来写

呵呵

andy!!!i came to update liao =)

正在听着旧的新年歌

都很好听叻

因为比较有feel xD

新的新年歌

不是人听的

onepiece

现在看到99集

还有很多要追啊～～

不过又要考试了

怎么办？？？lol

JJ：

你害什么羞啦

要讲直接讲咯

不用怕的嘛

大家都认识的

嘿嘿

去看你的blog

我comment了 =)

最近啊

没什么特别事发生吧

ermm

班级布置我是云朵组（其实是天花板）的组长 xD

和piong一起

虽然总共只有4人

不过我也暗爽了一下 ==

but这方面没经验咯

只能一直问怡纹 xD

今年的班级布置

应该还是能sapu =)

新年的团拜活动啊

弄得我很头痛叻

不过都最后一年了

还是决定去好点吧

不然后悔就惨

明天是春节活动了哦～～～

哈哈

今晚要早睡

明天要驾车 xD

晚安啊 ^^

15/1/11

嗯

好久不见

今天这篇 终于是第100篇了

不过现在也没什么特别心情

还好吧 没什么值得高兴的

最近正在追着one piece

虽然有点慢

不过真的很好看 =)

今天和一般朋友去加影吃沙爹

然后去怡纹的家

其实还好

不过个人觉得晚餐其实没有吃到

只是几条沙爹还有一盘mini-sized炒饭

不够饱

还有活动不够多

party一次

伤心一次（虽然只是几天）

问过他们

不懂做么他们不会好像不舍得的咩？

今天载piong回家

然后在车一直谈天咯

kajang回去很远嘛 就讲了很久

她说她很开心有我们一班朋友

哈哈 其实我也不应该再奢求什么了

自己的日子

也不会说过的很不好

况且也有个好家庭

真不该再为了什么因为彼此间感情不够好

而影响自己心情了

啊哈哈哈

要大声笑 哇哈哈哈哈

开心些 对身体有益

不过我现在的位置真的很不好

没有人能陪我讲话

T^T

一个人的时候

就是很喜欢想东想西

而且还是负面的东西

看来我还是个悲观的人噢

也是一样

要大声笑 哇哈哈哈哈

然后改掉

一年的时间

还能有几次party

几次旅行？

啊啊啊啊啊

而且一下子就over了

最后一年

真的希望我不会留下任何遗憾 =(

5/1/11

今年的第一篇哦

还有是整体来说第99篇了 =)

第100篇

还想要在什么特别日子才写的

lol 不过应该很难了

candee：

肯定会update啦

现在在update着咯 =)

thx for yr support

i will try to lead a better life

not for anyone

but for myself ^^

feel pleased to visit my blog whenever u want

JJ：

我值得你交

在班上就常来找我咯 =)

要做朋友 做么只是网上叻？？

lol

原来内容有一直重复哦？？

我还以为每次内容都不一样

只是中心思想大概一样而已

哈哈

本人的blog太有魅力

没办法 xD

漫长的假期

过去噜～～～

前天开学了

不过很闷咯

坐在角落

热+闷

虽然位子比较宽

隔壁和前面都是couples

然后没人陪我讲话 T^T

又没有人要来找我 :'(

今年做回财政

原本是想testing做那些没有做过的

不过也好啦

财政只做过一年

做多一年也无妨 =)

明天正式上课了

有校长的力学节

lol 不懂会是怎样的

有点期待

今年的生日啊

又中考试

真的是夭寿

最后一年 还要这样

T^T

最近过得还好

周边的人都很幸福哦

但感觉上跟朋友有些疏远了

好像很多东西他们自己讲自己的

没跟我分享 也不会说怎么理睬我

我也要努力了

祝我好运 =)