19/2/12

原来今天已经十九号了。。
不查下根本没发觉
岁月还真不留人啊 =(

五月可能去当兵
不大想去叻
没人陪。。
没办法啦 还是得去的

嘿
最近这几天好像很容易堕入伤感mode
要振作起来了 =)

明天和后天老妈极需我的帮忙叻
待会儿应该会早睡
然后明天帮大忙咯 =D

嗯 最近tvb的那个戏
4 in love
有top of the world这首歌叻
好听 =)
比起现在的歌，还是以前的较好听

大家。。
有空找找我吧
真的 太久时间留在家里
闷死
我真的不想forever alone =(

13/2/12

哈咯 我又来了

这几天在家里过着很无趣空虚的生活
是时候找个工作了
不然整天在家想个有的没的
行尸走肉 懒散堕落
有点辛苦

昨晚还真吓到了
想不到我竟然那么的annoying
有点hurt到
不过到底还是我的错啦
改次不行这样了
改次没人要跟我说话 我会惨死
不过现在有点怕叻 有点恐怖

ok！！
我要positive！

明天是一点都不亲爱的情人节
去年的今天我好像在拼命折玫瑰？
今年啊。。forever alone =)
但祝所有人都能开心渡过啦
情人节快乐to the world

10/2/12

毕业后
似乎都没有上来更新
亲爱的部落格
看来大家都把你遗忘了吧
对不起啊..

刚从霹雳回来
探了尚健 顺便吃吃风
3天2夜 过得很开心
还真难忘的
和朋友一块儿旅行真的感觉很好
希望会有下一次

但啊
就是改不了
昨天+前天的确很伤感
老毛病 没办法
今天好了些
但仍旧有些空虚

好害怕会有一天
你最要好的朋友 不再记得你
你重视的人 离你而去
不要啊啊啊啊 我真的会伤心死
虽然说已步入生命的另一阶层
会有新朋友 新环境 新生活
但是我还是放不下啊
真的很害怕 大家有一天不再记得我了
=(
可以的话 还真想和大家在一起一辈子

你或许会觉得一个男生这样说话会很噁
但是我就是那种把感情看得很重的人
友情+亲情对我来说都一样重要
因为那些跟我很好的朋友
我早已把你们当成我家人对待了 =)

感觉回来了
看来会常更新这里
睡了 晚安

2/11/11

so fast
统考过去了
考得很差 怎么办
梦到只有两个A 还有C thim
很恐怖咯 有史以来最吓人的

昨天和今天都出席文学奖颁奖礼
but那个英文的只是安慰
幸好今天国文拿特优
不然很失望咯～～～
哈哈，那个panel hakim讲
kategori A cerpen 能拿特优的
在写作方面很有才华
娃哈哈 有点暗爽
RM150 要怎么用？
好像没什么人可以跟我一同分享
算啦 买多多笔大学用

毕业典礼 18/11
不过很wtf啦
唱什么“听你说”
zzzz 我要萍聚啊 ><
yerrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr

要毕业了
last few days in school
啊啊啊啊啊
很伤感啊

听着萍聚
很有感觉 =(

19/6/11

it's 3.xx am in the morning
but i just can't sleep yet
have to hand in a cerpen to syahnaz by monday
it's tomorrow..
but i'm lack of time =(

so many homework given
i don't even have time to finish it
haiz....
i need a rest desperately...

i get lots of pressure from people around me
just hope that i can still deal with it

too many things are holding me back
when only can i start to move on?
sigh...

15/6/11

i feel so bad
terribly bad =(
it's like all my fault

if it wasn't me
she wouldn't be suffering now
i just wanted to make things right
i hope she really understands

someone told me she cried so badly
this just breaks my heart
i couldn't stand imagining her hiding in the corner sobbing so hysterically
i just feel bad
but i couldn't do a thing to help

i wouldn't want to think about it now
but i can't
perhaps we just need more time

i really hope she will get better soon
and me too
she has great goals waiting for her to achieve
i wish her all the best
i really hope that she will be living better than me in the future
only then she will find real contentment and pure happiness

12/6/11

i wanted to scream so badly =(
why things became like this??
why is it like that?
it's like things were never easy for me...

i really wish 2012 will come soon
so that it will cover all the ugly truths
all secrets remain secrets

i'm suffering so badly now
but i couldn't do a thing...

after all i'm just a miserable, sad wimp
nothing more than that